There is a story in the life of Jesus.
After he performed the excruciating forty-day ordeal, Satan appeared to him and said,
”Since it is said in the scriptures that when a prophet is born, God always protects him; if you are really the Son of God jump from this mountain and He will save you!”
Jesus replied,
”That is correct, but the scriptures also say that only those who doubt Him, will test Him. I have no doubts. I am sure that the angels are standing there to protect me. I am thoroughly convinced. Had I the slightest doubt that perhaps they are not there, or that perhaps I am not the Son of God, then I would have tested Him.”
As soon as there is doubt, the question of trial and investigation comes in and we begin to make our demands.
Our conditions are:
”Fulfill my desire if You exist. If it is fulfilled then You are ; if not, You are not.”
In such a state of mind, our ego gets stronger, we turn further and further away from Him.
The more we are, the more we stand with our back towards Him.
Understand this equation: “the less you are, the more you are turned in His direction ; when your ego is completely crushed, He stands before you.”
The faithful one makes no demands, makes no tests. Being always filled with gratitude, he never asks favors.
The day we stop our demands, our fear will cease. When we are filled with gratitude, the demands will lessen and we will begin to turn towards Him, straightening our vessel.
As our vessel becomes upright, drops of His grace will begin to fall in it and fear will vanish.
Then you will find He is always pouring His Grace and you were unnecessarily worried and frightened to face the future.
We will then accept whatever comes our way.
Until we begin to see Him in all, we will not be able to see Him at all.